hola familia, thanks mom for your words of encouragement. i can´t even tell you how much it helps keep me going. Yes it has been rough lately, but I am doing better. sometimes i am weaker than others and i break down, but most of the time I am doing ok. i guess i have just felt really alone in everything. it has been really hard to connect with my companion. she comes from a very different culture, and there are a lot of things that make it hard that i never expected. but what I am realizing is bothering me so much is that i feel like i need to be doing more. i feel like i should be working differently, but feel trapped because i dont know how. She is a great missioary, but she works a lot differently than what i would do. the rama has a lot of problems. last year they had about 80 attending sacrament meetings and now there is only 30 to 40 each week. seems like every week someone else didn´t come. the relief society pres hasn'tcome in a month. we are trying to get the help of the members bc that really is the only way to have success, but hardly any are active and don't really want to help. we are trying to figure out how to gain their confidence and get them excited about missionry work. ideas for activities with them would be of so much help. i have just felt like everything i do is of no use. we did get a reference from some elders of a teenager they taught once and she came to church and loved it. she really is prepared to receive the gospel. they had to pass her off to us bc when they taught the law of chastity she wanted to live it but was living with her boyfriend. he didn´t agree and they broke up so now she is living in our area with her dad. she is only 17 and has a cute baby, but she is so ready to turn around her life. she has incredible faith. we found another woman who i just don´t get. she knows the church is true. she was praying and fasting to know what path to follow in her life when we came to her house. we felt the spirit so strong in the lesson and i know the spirit led us to her. we set a baptismal date, but when we went to visit her again she was like, i am good in my church. i wasn´t born to be a mormon. ya she had talkd to her pastor. what she is looking for is right infront of her but she doesnt have the guts to grab hold. i almost cried. we convinced her to let us come back and visit again but when we did she had her daughter lie to us that she wasnt home. they do that a lot thinking we don´t know. ha.anyways, it breaks my heart when they reject because I just know how much happiness the gospel can bring into their lives. i want it so bad for them . I want to much for them to really understand the atonement and how much it can help them, but they are just so closeminded. haha. when we talk to them in the street, they are just say tengo mi religion. soy catolico apostolico romano. they think this will make us leave them alone if they say they have their religion, but oh so wrong they are. the way they say it hilarious. when you come mom and dad you can hear if first hand. they all say that every one has their own beliefs and ways of worshipping, but I like to share ephesians 4:5 one god, one faith, one baptism. anyways, I am trying to stay afloat and be humble enough to learn what heavenly father is trying to teach me right now. I love you all so much and pray for you every day. mom it brings tears to my eyes to know that you have found something that is helping. what a blessing. i hope all is well. dad i hope you had fun with the hodgdons. can´t wait till that is me next year!!
ps: in the package can you send the dry idea deoderant, more of the facewash you sent, more wrinkle release stuff, peanut butter!!!!, handsanitizer, and more toilet paper to go (almost out)
also happy late birthday mike!!!!!!!!
also dad do you think you can see if the book mormon doctrine is sold in the states in spanish? a member wants it so much but can´t get it here. let me know how much it is if you find it thanks